This was the sunset from my building the other night. It offered the perfect warmth for such a cold night. And it warmed my heart a little too. I am making sloooow progress on the studio remodel and because I’m not writing but rather hammering, cutting, scraping, and painting I easily begin to doubt my vision. As I continue to purchase supplies, materials, furniture and fabric, I have begun to question: just what in the world am I doing?! But I know that’s just my critic rearing her loud head. She’s telling me that I’m going to be a big fat failure and that all this effort will be fruitless. No one will come. You’ll fail. And you know what — that might indeed happen. But at least I will have tried. I’m not a risk taker. But I am with this venture. But as I continue to pour out my heart (and sweat and a few tears), I choose to believe that those efforts will not be returned empty and that I will indeed succeed.
We are so close now — and it’s getting into a marathon mindset that is key for my mental stability. And I’m in this for the long haul!