Thoughts

Progress – Day 11

Watercolor Typewriter

I can’t believe it’s only been 11 days since I started my morning pages challenge.  However, out of the other side of my mouth, I can’t believe I’ve stuck with it for 11 days!  As predicted, writing in the morning is TOUGH for me.  It seems that my first few words are always: sleepy. tired. grumpy.  It has also served as a great place to record my dreams.  They have been active and weird lately.  But I’ve found a bit of a rhythm and it’s always hard to cut myself off in order to get ready for the day.  Saturday morning’s pages were great because I could write as long as I wanted.  I hate racing the morning clock.  I have learned that it takes me about 15 to write the three pages.  You would think that I could get up earlier, but it’s just not possible.  But a clock does make me get right to it, spit out what I want to say.  I started on the first day with an unexpected genre (or theme rather?) and I have continued building on it each day — even if it’s only one of the three pages.  We’ll see if it turns into something more.  For now, I’m just sticking to the plan — three pages, first thing in the morning.

P.S. So this weekend I discovered this new app that turns your photos into watercolor portraits… Umm, maybe I spent too much time playing with it!

Slow & Steady

This was the sunset from my building the other night.  It offered the perfect warmth for such a cold night.  And it warmed my heart a little too.  I am making sloooow progress on the studio remodel and because I’m not writing but rather hammering, cutting, scraping, and painting I easily begin to doubt my vision.  As I continue to purchase supplies, materials, furniture and fabric, I have begun to question: just what in the world am I doing?!  But I know that’s just my critic rearing her loud head.  She’s telling me that I’m going to be a big fat failure and that all this effort will be fruitless.  No one will come.  You’ll fail.  And you know what — that might indeed happen.  But at least I will have tried.  I’m not a risk taker.  But I am with this venture.  But as I continue to pour out my heart (and sweat and a few tears), I choose to believe that those efforts will not be returned empty and that I will indeed succeed.

We are so close now — and it’s getting into a marathon mindset that is key for my mental stability.  And I’m in this for the long haul!

Studio Sunset